Weird Meanderings

First off, Nikki has heard my call and been in contact, for those gentle reader who are not caught up, my last communique was a call for help actually maneuvering this site and changing fonts (Because I fucking hate this font).

So thank you Nikki. She suggested I instal the JetPack app on my phone (I did, because why ask for help and then not take it, that would not only be idiotic, and insulting, but in my case would also be typical-I’m trying to be better, stop judging!) She also suggested I instal the WordPress app on my laptop. Now I have done this at the appropriate prompting when I “built” the site, the problem I am now faced with is (First world problems) I am “Laptop Rich”. Meaning I have more than one (More than two, shit more than three if we want to really delve deep, but now it sounds like I’m bragging) and my main two are Macs. I have a Mac at work and one at home. (For you Apple Nerds, I know that they are “Mac Books” again, stop being so judgey) SOOO the issue I am faced with now is that I am writing from home without the advantage of having the WordPress App, because my dumb ass can’t find it. (NO! It’s NOT in the App store) Because of this weird glitch, I can’t follow Nikki’s instruction (unless I want to do this on my Iphone, which I don’t)

All in all this has been quite an adventure. Not like the swash buckling adventure I imagined in my head, but then again, what is outside of what’s in my head? As I think of that, I realize that everything outside my head is a little disappointing, except Scuba Diving and Sex. My goal with both is to just surface alive. Well and not to inconvenience anyone, but that’s a thing with me. Oooh, and that all parties involved had a reasonably good time. Of course this doesn’t always happen, because in Scuba things can go a little haywire, like breathing through your air too fast and having to end the dive before others are ready, in that way it is like sex, over too soon.

Shit, where was I? Oh yes! Adventure! A little about me and my basic attitude when addressing life and life’s’ idiosyncrasies, even if it sucks, and much of life does (or can depending on your outlook) all of these new experiences are valuable. And that in itself is exciting and fulfilling.

Like doing this thing we are doing here. What are we looking for, I mean REALLY looking for? It is this writer’s humble opinion (which may be the only thing humble about this writer) that we are all just looking for a sense of connection. We are all just trying to create some sort of community, one in which we may feel like we belong, with some shared experiences and possibly deeper connections with each other.

I guess that would be ME being Judgey, though, because in all reality, it’s what I want. Maybe you’re here doing this thing out of ego, simply a me me me kind of thing, but I have a hard time believing that. No, gentle reader, I sincerely believe that you are also looking for some sort of connection. I hope that you find it, and if you don’t find it here, that’s ok, please keep looking, because that is the number one thing we all need, a sense of belonging and the idea that someone out there loves and cares about us.

Well shit, if that all didn’t come out of nowhere! I guess I’m like fucking Aesop today with all my fairy tales having a moral. Hmmm, I actually did NOT see that coming. Weird. Anyway, thank you for joining me this morning as I sip coffee and wax moodily. I appreciate you all so very much, and Nikki, you are a gem and I love you. (You’re ok you know, you are loved and safe)

Peace out yo~